1. It's your wedding anniversary and you don't give a shit. In fact, you think you probably should at least partly care, and you still can't even work up an iota of caring.
2. You look at your children and only see yourself because seeing your ex would be so reprehensible, it would destroy you.
3. You and your ex still can't speak to each other without using profanity and calling awful names.
4. Your ex is still doing exactly what he did that caused you to divorce him (drinking in excess like a fish).
5. Being alone is an okay proposition in contrast to being with your ex.
6. When you look at him, you think..."I slept with him for eight years...what the hell was I thinking?"
7. You dream that his girlfriend stays with him forever because she's stable and probably a better influence on the kids than he is.
8. Your entire family confesses that they hated him your entire marriage.
9. Your children won't talk to their dad about being mad at him because they seem him s rarely, they're scared to make him mad.
10. You actually feel like yourself...like the shadow of who you are is starting to become a real person, not something you have to sew back on.
Today would have been 9 years. Thank the stars above, it wasn't.
There are lots of reasons I'm not sorry.
ReplyDelete(Robbie, Jacob, Lily and Brady being the top 4)
But, a few reasons that I am.
I love you.
this time...you don't have to think the stars above.... (you get to thank YOU).
ReplyDeletelove you
this is in response to your comment on my '23' post.
ReplyDeleteYOU also never disappoint.
Those text messages you sent to me will mean more than you ever know.
Someday I'll find the words to explain, even though you probably already know. :)
love.